Sometimes, I find it amazing that when life gives you shit, there's always that silver lining that pops up and makes things okay again. Sort of. Kinda like a consolation prize, but still a prize nonetheless! Like, when friends don't live up to expectations, I'll be feeling all down and meh. Then, out of the blue, things will just work out that other people will step in and make life all bright and cheery again! It's like affirmation, although I'm not sure what they're suppose to affirm sometimes. Silly things still hurt me like nobody's business, but I'm telling myself time and again that things tend to work out in God's way, not my way.
So here's to life - the sucky bits, and the awesome parts of it. :)
Things should sail smoothly for longer periods of time. What is the point of fixing everything just so you can enjoy the fruits of your labour for a mere two weeks?
At times like these, I really regret coming home. I have more of a life when I live away from home. I have more independence. Here, it's slowly being chipped away. Nowadays I think of potential scholarships as more of a means to be financially independent from my family rather than support for my studies and research.
Drat. Maybe that's why I'm not getting any calls or notifications? This is depressing.
Honestly, these days I don't really know what to pray for anymore.